yesterday sukked ass. My cousin's husband died while boogeyboarding in Costa Rica yesterday the same tim I was at tech. Goddamnit, why does this bad shit happen to good people. If there is a god, he's doing a bad job...

sometimes, i feel so hated by my family, i want to be alone. I want to lock myself in my room so I can be alone, yet talk to my friends because they're the only people I like talking to. my mom and my sister are evil, manipulative loud bitches, my dad's a pansy, my cousin tina's a shrewish lying manipulative whore, her boyfriend thinks im weird, erik hates me, my grandmas either hate me or think im a reclusive rapunzel, geoffrey and michael are scared of me, chris thinks im crazy as well as his brothers. So much hate, so much disdain, i feel like being sad and crying, but I can't. So, I'll sit in my room all alone and cold and hope for a brighter day, a day which will never, ever arrive.

gargh. I love the tv show Drawn Together on Comedy central! Ling ling! actually, i like xandir as much as ling ling, because he's interesting in a special way... I'll talk later.