August 20, 2006

  • can't sleep at all. stayed up watching beauty and the beast songs in canto and singing belle's songs to match her tone to have a more convincing cosplay. Recently I've been bugged by dear cousin Tina, because she always picks on my lesser qualities and makes fun of my mistakes and humiliates me infront of everyone. Why the fuck does she do that? Some days I reach the breaking point where I just want to let her know what I think of her and just explode. Maybe Jon leaving her wasn't his fault, if I was engaged to her, i certaintly would have jumped ship, heck I wouldn't have even thought about any relationship with her if I could avoid it. I'm losing my control, I might just snap at any moment now. The worst fact is that everyone seems to join in, and pretty soon it becomes a giant roast with everyone joining in. I need to get out pronto, I'll end up taking a loooong walk away and maybe crashing at Stephen's house till I can go back.